Rules were made to be broken, right?
First . . . . .
I could not dare start off without thanking a few of my friends that have totally stood up, shown up and let me know they have my back. It could be a daily text to check on me (Thank you Tatum), or taking over an Awana pumpkin project to decorate with Brighton (Margaret - you seriously are my hero!), or bringing me lunch just to sit and talk and check on me AND hauling my kid around while I have conferences. (Jodi - you are a saint.) I love you three dearly and you bring a sense of calmness that I very much need. My awesome principal who has had more than her fair share with the medical world, has been awesome in checking in on doctors, reminding me when I should call - not letting me give up - and sending me words of encouragement. I am blessed with the hugs, cards, and small tokens everyone has shown me in the past few days. Thank you, it really does mean a lot. My parents have been incredibly supportive and helpful in making sure I am minding my ps and qs. They always are and we are very lucky to have them right down the driveway.
What's new . . .
Well, I have studied a lot. I have changed my diet completely. Since Friday I have eaten a lot of salads and 1 gluten free pizza. I have done well without the cokes, caffeine, fried foods and fast foods - but let me tell you - I would love a juicy steak about now! It is so strange because I hardly ever eat meat.
So, I'm in a medical limbo. My PCP has not sent the referral to Joplin therefore Joplin cannot schedule an appointment for me. I have emailed and called my PCP, but with no luck. No one has called me back or emailed me back regarding my referral to Joplin. So, I'm stuck. I'll push again tomorrow.
Rules?
So, I said I was okay with the diet (so far). I am supposed to be taking it easy - getting good rest - and not over doing it. Over-doing it is my middle name! Stress is my game! So, this is incredibly hard for me. I worked tonight until 8:30, tomorrow I teach Children's Lit until 7:00 after working all day and Thursday night I teach Music Ed until 7:30. Here's the thing. I thought I had it under control. I thought I could continue to work this hard and just control my diet. Nope. As I lay here typing this at 9:52 - this girl is hurting. My legs, feet, ankles, and back. I am already paying for today - so I can't imagine what tomorrow will feel like. Some how, some way, I am going to have to learn to take it easy. This rule was not meant to be broken.
Seeing the Light
In every situation that I have been faced with a challenge, I can look back and see God working through it or working on me during it. I'm starting to see the light. For example - I have the absolute best class I have probably ever taught. Seriously. No one is really a challenge, they are all very polite and respectful and just down to earth great kids. I think I was blessed with these kids because this was going to happen and the Lord was taking care of me. I didn't need extra stress. Praise the Lord for these precious babies!
At any given moment
At any given moment, I could be experiencing any of these symptoms - lately I have had a great sensitivity to light, no appetite, and a lot of stiffness in my back and legs. If you think to pray for me, please pray for my referral to go through and I can see the specialist sooner than later.
Much love.
JB